Music is my first love.
It appeared at a time in my youth when it seemed as though I would never get into anything at all. It was the first thing I showed any natural aptitude for and an ability to focus on for long periods of time.
I became a singer, a guitarist, a song writer and was in and out of bands for years. I even recorded an album at one point and played at music festivals. Those days feel far away now, but when my last band broke up 12 years ago I put music on the back burner as I pursued my career in film & TV.
I never planned to stay away from it this long.
Scary part is… it wasn’t like riding a bike. The talent I’d spent over a decade nurturing had withered through lack of use.
Every year for the past 5 years top of my new year’s resolution list is to GET BACK INTO MUSIC.
There have been some false starts and at one point I was doing some piano lessons and got my first grade at age 32, but getting back on stage as a musician still feels a ways off.
It doesn’t scare me, perse. I was always at home on stage, as the front man of a band or even by myself. It’s just that when I do get back on stage I want to be ready. I want to do a good job of it.
I could get up with a guitar tomorrow and bash out some tunes if I had to, but that’s not what I’m after any more.
I’m trying to create something - a sound, a persona, an aesthetic.
But I do need practice.
I’ve started taking myself to a rehearsal studio once a week to just make some noise, and make some mistakes in private.
This clip is an excerpt of a new song I’m working on.
Sharing this is less about hoping for praise or showing something perfect, it’s more about just sharing something that isn’t finished or perfect and reminding people, and myself of who I was, who I am and who I hope to be.
